again.

I have tried to write this entry so many times, and every time I try I either start crying and can't do it or else it ends up sounding so icy that I just delete it. I just feel numb....kinda frozen most of the time. Any time I try to allow any emotions to escape it feels like a volcano about to blow so I quickly plug it back up and go on about life. I know at some point I am going to have to let it out but I have children I have to think about so until they leave and go to their Dad's house for the summer, it's going to have to stay bottled up.

The pregnancy is over. Last Saturday I posted here and said I didn't think it was going well. Sunday I woke up to spotting, a negative test and a huge temperature drop. By Monday I was bleeding and cramping horribly. The bleeding has just about stopped. I can't look at this as a miscarriage. I can't think about there having been a baby. Maybe that sounds cold or horrible or like I am in denial, and maybe I am, but right now I can't think of this as anything other than a chemical pregnancy. Hormones, a fertilized egg that never implanted. Just an egg. No baby. I cannot have another baby in heaven right now. I cannot name another baby that I will never be able to hold in my arms.

Matt is positive that we are going to be holding a healthy baby very soon. I am sure we will be holding a healthy baby eventually. I just don't know if it is going to happen the "normal" conventional way. I am starting to think maybe I should look into surrogacy. I have no idea where to turn for that even. I know that my SIL has offered to do it, but she has health issues and with two pregnancies and three babies in two years.......I don't think she should be doing it again anytime soon. My sister.....well lets just say that isn't even an option and leave it at that. I am fairly certain that if I asked my future SIL would do it, but she's so far away that I just can't even imagine how it could work. As far as the normal route of finding a surrogate through an agency......well there is just no way we could afford that anytime soon.

I've considered doing IVF but Matt doesn't feel comfortable with that at this point and doesn't know if he ever would (so he probably wouldn't agree to surrogacy even if there was someone who could do it). We discussed adoption at one point, but quickly decided that wasn't for us. I aplaud those who do take that route, but it just isn't for us unless it was a private adoption where someone we knew wanted us to adopt their child for one reason or another. First of all the cost of adoption is just too high for us, and second of all.....I would consider it if it was someone we knew but it isn't just having a baby that I want. I am desperate to experience pregnancy, labor, delivery.......the whole deal again. I was so young and arrogant and .....I don't know.....distracted maybe, that I didn't cherish those moments the first two times. I was so sure it would happen again and again. Now I regret not slowing down and enjoying it more. I want at least one more chance to experience all of it and then I might be more willing to consider adoption.

I guess my only option right now is to hope for the best while I wait to save up the money and then do a one and only one attempt at IUI using injectible medications. I'm hoping it doesn't even come to that and that Matt is right and we are pregnant in no time. If you have a moment to spare, say a quick prayer for me. I'd really appreciate it.

Prayers for a member of our family

We got a call this morning telling us that there was a fire last night and Matt's Uncle's house burned down. Thank God that he, his wife and their two daughters (12 and 15) made it out, but they've pretty much lost everything from the sound of it. I can't imagine what they are going through. I mean...I've known people this happened too before. We even had a family stay with us for a while when I was growing up because their house burned. They had been our neighbors and close friends of the family for a long time. I've never been there myself though. Unfortunately Matt and his parents have been so this is also bringing back tons of memories for my MIL I am sure.

I am considering walking over to see if there is anything I can do to help but I am not sure if I should. I hadn't written about it here yet because we haven't told anyone in the family, but I'm pregnant. It's not looking good though. I am praying that everything turns out well, but also preparing myself for the likelihood that I am about to experience yet another loss. While I really want to help Matt's Uncle and family see if we can save anything, at the same time, I am not sure walking across town and digging through a burned out house is in my best interest.

If I do lose this baby Matt is going to blame himself. We had sex last night and he was worried about it but I assured him it is perfectly fine to have sex during pregnancy. Now this morning I had some spotting and my FRER was negative this morning. The test from the $ store still had a line, but it's so faint I could barely see it. I'm really nauseous this morning too, but is that morning sickness, nerves because of the test this morning or somthing else entirely? I don't know what to think anymore. I'm just numb.

I can't help but wonder why this keeps happening. I almost feel like I must have done something wrong. Why else would I have 5 and now possible 6 losses in a row? I don't know what to do. I want a baby so badly, but I can't do this again. I can't afford all the tests and treatments that the RE wants to do.

Fired

I lost my job today. It was only 5 hours a week, so not a huge deal. I was babysitting a kid in the mornings before school. I was really only doing it because his mom needed some help, and I did it for next to nothing so it's not like I even counted on that money for anything. The situation pisses me off though.

See, this kid shows up around 6:30 every morning. His mom pulls in the drive, he jumps out, and she is gone before I can even get the door open. Well, this morning my cat's unplugged my alarm clock. I didn't wake up until 7. Mom pulls in the driveway at 6:30 dumps the kid and drives off even though the house is dark. The kid is in kindergarten. He's 5 freaking years old. He knocked on the door but the bedrooms are in the back of the house and you can't hear that little guy knock if you are back there and asleep. He got scared so he walked to the school. (They walk every morning anyway so he knew where he was going....just did it way too soon.)

Now don't get me wrong. I overslept. I should have been up and I know that, but the cats pulled the plug on my clock and facts are facts.....accidents (like oversleeping) happen from time to time. The mom called me and screamed at me for not being up. Umm, excuse me, but who drops their 5 year old kid off at a completely dark house at 6:30 in the morning and doesn't even wait to see if they make it inside?!? Like I said....I know that I screwed up, and I felt horrible, but so did she. Don't treat me like crap because you were too stupid to make sure the kid could get inside.

I actually think there was more to it than just this too. There was a situation at church on Sunday and a lot of people were on opposite sides of this argument. I was unhappy with a situation and was called out because I made a decision as a parent to remove my children from a situation that was out of control. Basically the woman who normally handles Children's Church was not there on Sunday morning and a few people decided to let the teens (oldest of who is 15) who assist with Children's church try to run it on their own. I slipped out to the bathroom at one point and when I came back into the sanctuary I told my husband that my kids would never go back if there wasn't adult supervision. The four teens were in the kitchen talking and a 12 year old was trying to lead children's church for the 3-11 year olds.

Within just a few minutes it went from kids getting a little too loud to kids getting WAY too loud. Matt and I looked at each other, I nodded and he went and pulled our two out and brought them back to the sanctuary with us. A few minutes later kids were running up and down the hall and slamming into the doors to the sanctuary completely distracting everyone. Apparently they were running relay races. Three or four adults all jumped up to go get things under control, but since the mother of 6 of the kids was headed out anyway, everyone just sat back down. After services I was cornered wanting to know why my kids hadn't been allowed to stay in the back and then told I was ridiculous to have removed them and how they get loud all the time and that day was no different. It was bad enough that even the minister was distracted, so yeah, it was different. Anyway....the lady who I babysit with is one of the 3 or 4 people who think that Children's church should be fun and game time for the kids....basically just free babysitting and had no problem with what was happening.

Somehow I am a bad person because I made my children behave in church. We knew Sunday night that the mom I babysit for, the mom that cornered me and one grandmother were all upset with me. They all three let their children run around in the sanctuary constantly (they are 2, 4, 5, and 7.....some of them much too old to be disrupting services like this) and feel that if someone else can't concentrate because of their children, that's their problem. Sunday night they spent about 20 minutes in the corner talking about something in whispers and shooting dirty looks at us. Monday morning when I stepped out on the porch and waved as she dropped her son off she turned her head and backed away without waving and she didn't call in the evening to check about how things went like she normally did. I knew something was up, so I really think she was just waiting for the right moment to do this. I was only supposed to babysit for another few weeks anyway. I told her I couldn't do it during the summer because my kids are away at their father's house.

Like I said... not a big deal financially, and trust me, I don't mind not having to deal with a child that is spoiled, has NEVER had to share, and throws 2 or 3 tantrums daily (and I only have him for an hour!) It just pisses me off that she acts like she didn't do ANYTHING wrong. I can't imagine dropping my 5 year old off anywhere and not waiting to make sure he got inside, but apparently she doesn't think it's a problem.

Oh well....I guess it's someone else's problem now.

Yard Sale sucess!

We had a yard sale on Friday. I've been planning on having one for a while. Organizing well in advance and was going to do it on May 2nd. Matt came home from work on Thursday and suggested that we do one on Saturday. We had most of the stuff gathered up, I just had to price it all, and then pick up tables from the church. We called the pastor to make sure we could get them and then rushed around pricing everything.

Friday morning I went to the bank and took $60 in change out of our savings account in quarters, ones and fives. While I was out and about I also hung up signs with info about the sale for Saturday AND for May 2nd on it. I really didn't expect to do much at all since I didn't even get any signs up until 24 hours before the sale. Plus....it was supposed to rain Saturday too, so we didn't really know how long we were going to be able to stay set up. I only had it scheduled until noon anyway because we had some other plans at noon. (Friends were coming over to watch a baseball game and cook out.)

We said a prayer before the sale started asking God to hold off the rain and to help us have a successful sale. We are trying to teach the kids that prayer is a very important part of our lives, so we are doing more and more prayers involving the entire family instead of just at dinner time. We are trying to show them that God does still answer prayers, and that miracles do still happen.

(Some pictures of the sale during a slow period.)

(The kids with their lemonade stand and a close-up of their sign.)

Sadly their lemonade stand didn't do very well. They only sold two glasses, but it was cool and windy and we shut down by 11 A.M., so we had prepared them for the fact that they might not do well on this day. They are hoping to do better when we repeat this in two weeks.

They did get to see proof that prayer works. God held off the rain until we closed up shop for the day. We hadn't had any customers in a while, so we decided to go ahead and take it down early. We already had most of it inside when the rain began. Another way our prayers were answered.....in only a few hours, with just a handful of customers we made over $150!

The lesson continued on Sunday. We frequently tell the kids that if you trust God, He will supply the means to meet your needs. Sunday morning at church my MIL brought us a piece of mail that went to her address. It was a bill that we had somehow overlooked and they were going to take action against us for collection. Our spur of the moment yard sale that we didn't expect to do well at all raised enough to cover that bill and allowed us to give Matt's grandparents some money so that they could visit our church on Sunday night.

God definitely answers prayers, and ALWAYS meets our needs.

Into the two week wait

Well, Fertility Friend has officially decided that I did ovulate. 5 days ago. I'm not entirely sure that I agree, but if I did that means I am already almost half way through my 2ww without even realizing it. Yay for that!

Matt seems so sure that this is the month we are finally going to have a sticky BFP. And he says that if it's not this month, then it is very soon. I on the other hand am starting to feel more like it is never going to happen. I will say that I did a chart overlay and my cycle this time is similar to my cycles in July of 2007 and July of 2008. I did conceive both times, so hopefully I did again this time, only have a happier ending than I did those times. If you know anything about charting, please take a look at my chart HERE and take the poll. You can see the chart overlay at the top of the page to see what I was talking about too.

Based on our intercourse timing Fertility Friend says I have a high chance of conception (but then again they don't know me) and if pregnant I would be due January 2nd. It also recommends testing on April 25th. At least that much we agree on. lol I guess only time will tell. So how about someone wakes me up on the 25th when it's time to test.....I think I can sleep until then. That's about the only way I can remain sane during this process!

A new home and more cleaning.

We ended up getting busy doing other things. Specifically trying to cut down this tree at our church that is completely dead and in danger of falling . The pastor had mentioned wanting it cut down, so we (Matt, his parents, his grandpa and I) were going to take care of that.

It helps if the chainsaw actually works though. From left to right, my mother-in-law, Matt's grandpa (his dad's dad), my father-in-law, and Matt. They are trying to get the chainsaw running and my mother-in-law and I keep telling them that this is a sign that we aren't supposed to cut it down on that particular day.

After we gave up on the tree, we already had the truck out so Matt and his Dad when and picked up the materials we needed to build a kennel for the dogs. It's almost as long as the garage. It was supposed to run the full length of the garage, but once we got started we realized that there was this big hole in the side of the garage that we needed to do something about. Instead, we shortened the length of the kennel a little bit and used that piece of fencing to run across the front of the garage. Now they have the outside area, and can still get into the garage where it's cool and dry. They have full run of the place.
Lady and Suzy now live in the kennel/garage. Ladyhad always been an outside dog before. She only came inside when she had Nueva in the middle of the winter, and she had started using the bathroom in the house again, so out she goes. Suzy.....well she likes to chew endlessly so she was spending more and more time in a small kennel inside because of that. I think it was mostly that she wasn't getting enough exercise (this little girl NEVER wears out!) so we decided to put her outside with Lady and see if it would even work out. Well, she honestly seems happier outside than she ever was inside because she can just run until she falls down. She isn't anywhere near as territorial or loud as she was inside either. She had gotten to the point where she was barking non-stop, but now she just runs and jumps and plays and has a ball. You can't see it in the picture, but they have an old recliner in the garage that they curl up in together to sleep. We bought that dog house for Lady a few years ago and I don't think it's ever been used! lol
Today we set up this little basketball/soccer set we got for the kids. It is just a cheap little plastic set that we got during a "yard sale" that the local grocery store holds a few times a year. They have all this seasonal stuff that they try to get rid of during the off season. If you wait long enough, they even end up giving some things away. That's how we got this. We originally had two of them, but like I said....they are cheap and one broke while we where trying to set it up.
We used the basketball part of the one that broke and nailed it on the side of the house so that they can actually have a bit more challenge. lol Not that it's that hard, but harder than when it's on the actual set.

Easter and more cleaning.

We had a decent Easter here. It was the first year that both of my kids were "too old" for the traditional Easter fun. Neither of them even wanted to color eggs (though they admitted yesterday they wish we had) and Matt had to work, so it was a very laid back day. We went to church that morning and they did participate in the egg hunt there. Afterwards we came home and watched some tv. I wasn't feeling well so I napped while they hung out in their bedroom watching movies. When Matt got home they got their candy (they chose to wait until he was home) , and we all spent some time together.

I wasn't feeling well, so I ended up napping some more.....to the point that they all went back to church in the evening and just left me at home in bed. I think the main problem was just exhaustion from everything I did last week. I'm finishing up all the cleaning today. Going through the kids toys and getting rid of all the stuff they have outgrown, the toys with broken pieces, and the stuff they just don't play with anymore. They won't be very happy with me, but it will make me happy. Besides, they don't play with much anymore.

I'm going to keep Wills matchbox cars and his toy guns. Sierra will still have a few dolls. I am keeping coloring books, crayons and all their books, but other than that, I plan to get rid of most of it. They mainly just play video games and watch TV anymore anyway so there really isn't any need to have all this STUFF around.

Why is it that when you decide to spring clean your house it looks soooo much worse before it ever looks better? lol It should be better soon. I'm almost finished. I just wish it was done already!

Eleven

I blinked somewhere along the line and missed something. Yesterday they handed me a beautiful baby girl, and today....today my baby girl is 11 years old! How did that happen?!? It honestly doesn't even seem humanly possible for her to be 11 already. It's crazy!

We are going to have cake an ice cream today, and she already got a Hannah Montana journal from Matt's parents. His sister called from California to wish Sierra a happy birthday too. She received a card in the mail from our church and from Matt's grandparents. They gave her some money and a neighbor handed her some money this morning for her birthday too.

She doesn't know it yet, but Matt is picking up the Taylor Swift cd that she asked us for on his was home from work tonight for her. She's also going to get a party back home in May when we go for a visit where my mom has several new outfits for her. I still can't believe that she is eleven already!

After picture

Just thought I would share a quick AFTER picture of the garage. It's not completely finished, but very close. The bed needs demolished, and the cardboard is all going to be burned. The air conditioner will come inside in a month or so, and the two stoves.....well they were here when we moved in, so they stay. So once again......

BEFORE

AFTER

The bags that you see right around that bed are things that I need to take to the recycling center still mostly soda cans and bottles and tin cans. I'll probably do that tomorrow. My dumpster......well, I need to call to have it emptied already. There was a lot more in that garage than I realized!

It only took a couple of hours and the kids actually enjoyed helping. I guess it was because of the dumpster. I don't know. Usually they complain about it but today they actually worked. Thank goodness Sierra didn't have any homework and we were able to get it done today because tomorrow she has to stay after school for Cardinal Partners (tutoring/detention) and then we have to run up and get their glasses. I've got to run and get showered and get my cake frosted now. If I don't hurry I am going to be late for church! Just had to brag about my accomplishment for the day!

Spring Cleaning

If there is one thing I have learned since I became a parent, it's that kids are pack rats. They don't ever want to get rid of ANYTHING. It doesn't matter if they haven't touched it in over a year. Half the parts can be missing, or it can be one small part of something and they have no idea what it goes to, but they don't want to get rid of it because "Mooooom! It's miiiiine!"

Every year my kids DREAD hearing me say the words spring cleaning. They know I am going to go through all of their toys and get at least a bag....maybe two...of trash. They HATE it. Well, this year, they are going to hate it even more. This year is going to be a spring cleaning like they have never known. Today after they left for school, I made a phone call, and a few minutes ago, I had someone deliver THIS:



Why do I need a dumpster? Well a couple of reasons. Number one being that I am also a pack rat, and have enabled my children to become pack rats. I think it was because my parents were also pack rats, and they enabled me. Maybe it's just a human thing. Maybe we all do it, but I am sick of it. We decided it's time to go through the ENTIRE house and get rid a of a ton of crap we don't need.

Another reason is because in the past when we have decided to get rid of things, we bag or box it up, stick it in the garage and say "In a week or two we will borrow Dad's truck and take that to the landfill." Well, three years of that has resulted in this:

With the exception of the bikes and the recliner, most if not all of this is trash. Now, the garage isn't one I can park my car in or anything. Reason being some genius built the garage with a wooden floor and then didn't repair a leaky roof. Most of the floor has rotted out and it DEFINITELY won't support a car. I would like to be able to get my bikes, my grill and my lawn mower in and out without a fight though. The recliner stays because my dog uses it as a bed when she is outside. The rest of this crap is just that.....CRAP and is going into the dumpster. I have it for the next two weeks, and it only costs $30 each time they come empty it. They only do that when I call to have it done, so they aren't charging me for emptying a half full dumpster or anything.

I'll have to do before and after shots of the closet in my room, the kids closet and the pantry, which are the main areas of concern. And of course I will be including after photos of the garage too. Tonight we have bible study, so between dinner, homework, bible study and all that, there isn't a lot of time for anything else, but tomorrow........ oh tomorrow the fun begins!
MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

(I couldn't resist the evil laugh. It just felt right!)

Honesty

I have to be honest and say I am really having a very hard time dealing with a lot of things right now. There are several people in my family and close friends who are either pregnant or have new babies right now, and after three years I still don't have either. I can honestly say that EVERY single month I let myself believe.....truly believe that this is my month. Every month I am DEVASTATED when I am not pregnant. And when I do finally get pregnant, I'm not able to enjoy it. I think if I ever get to the six week mark I will relax some, but I don't know that I will ever honestly be able to relax and enjoy pregnancy again. That right was taken away from me on October 10th 2006.

I saw that positive pregnancy test in October and I was ecstatic. I know that things go wrong, but that was something that happens to other people. That doesn't happen to me or anyone I know. I had only ever known one person that had ever even had a miscarriage, and honestly.....everyone kind of thought it was her fault. She had been doing a lot of working and over did it the night before her miscarriage, and I knew she must blame herself for that loss. I felt so bad for her because I couldn't even IMAGINE that kind of pain.

Now I have not only imagined that, but felt that same pain 5 separate times. Always wondering if I did something wrong. Always wondering if I should have done something different. Always wondering why it had to happen again. The thing that people don't realize until they have experienced a loss is that it NEVER goes away. When I get a positive pregnancy test now, two things happen within a split second of seeing that line. The first is that my heart jumps for joy. FINALLY! Two pink lines! A fraction of a second later my stomach drops clear to my toes. WHAT IF?!? What if it happens again? How long do I have this time? Will I have a baby in nine months or will this be over in a few days or a week? So far it ends quickly.

I continue to hope...no, to believe.....that one day I will have a baby again. One day I will see two pink lines and nine months later I will have a baby. I have to believe that. If I can never have another baby I don't think I will ever feel complete. I suppose that one day that might change, but at this point.....I just really need to keep that hope. I need to believe. Some days I feel SOOO positive. Other days I feel really negative. I've noticed a pattern the past few months. I am up during the 2ww when there is a chance that it just might happen. When AF shows and for a week or two afterwards, I am so depressed. Until I ovulated again and see well timed intercourse I have a hard time believing that it still might happen. I guess three years of TTC does that to you.

I've started talking more to my husband about what if.... what if we don't have a baby together? What if the two I brought into the marriage are the only children we ever have? What if we never have enough money for our back-up plan of traveling the world? What if? What if? What if? I know that at some point I will have to say enough is enough. I know that my body cannot continue this way forever. The stress of it is just too much. I don't know when I will get to that point, and honestly I hope I never find out.

If you are reading this, and you have a moment to and a prayer to spare, please say a little prayer for us. We are so ready for a baby. We have been for so long. My husband is a great Daddy to my children and he will be great to our child too. He deserves the chance to experience the ENTIRE parenting experience. Pregnancy, birth, infant, toddler.....all of that. My youngest was already 4 when we got together. I want him to have those first 4 years with a baby. I want to experiance it again. I want to do it with him. Please, just say a little prayer for us that we can have a child, or that we find peace with things if we can't.

Thank you so much. You have no idea how much it means to me.

Whew! Its over! Sort of.

It was a very long and busy weekend. It all started on Friday when I had to take the kids for a quick eye appointment. Yea right! The did a basic vision test, dilated their eyes, did another more in depth test, dilated their eyes even further and had yet ONE MORE test. Oh, and did I mention they were running behind so it was almost an hour late before they got us in? In the end both kids needed glasses. Will is far sighted (which we were pretty he needed glasses) and has an astigmatism. Sierra.....just like me, always has to be difficult! lol She is far-sighted in one eye, and also has a lazy eye on that side (the left) and she is near sighted in the right. That is why we didn't really know she had problems. The doctor said she probably trained herself at a very early age to use one eye for far away things and the other for up close things and didn't even realize she was only using one eye at a time. CRAZY, right?!? We've ordered their glasses and they should be here late this week or early next week.

On Saturday....what happened Saturday? Oh! Saturday we went for our monthly shopping trip. Yes, I only do grocery shopping once a month. I plan out the menus the best I can and make a list of what I need for those meals. I don't decide in advance which meals to cook which days. Just make sure to have 30 or so breakfast items for Matt and I (the kids only eat breakfast at home on the weekends, so a couple boxes of cereal get us through the month), 30 lunches, and then 35 or so dinners (so that I have extra stuff for church dinners and in case we have unexpected company). I hate taking these trips on the weekends for two reasons......there are more people in the stores then, and I have two kids begging for extras then. It was also the first part of the month, which mean even more people out. It was so crowded and I got REALLY stressed out, but I survived. Shopping for a month worth of food takes most of the day too.

After we got home and got everything put away I gave the kids a quick, but late lunch and then we took them to my in-laws house. They wanted to keep them overnight, and it gave Matt and I a chance to have a "date night". We grilled steaks, has salad, shrimp and twice baked potatoes for dinner. I also splurged and had cream cheese danishes and vanilla ice cream for dessert. It was so yummy. To finish out the evening, we watched Nights in Rodanthe.

Sunday was church and snow. WHAT?!?! Are you kidding me? Still snowing? This is getting insane! I am so ready for spring. We spent most of the day trying to stay warm. We are ready enough for spring that we spent all day yesterday spring cleaning. We went through the kids closets and got TONS of stuff that was too small to sell in our yard sale this summer, and now we are going through the stuff that fits ans deciding what to keep and what to get rid of.

Today I am doing just regular weekly cleaning. Sweeping and mopping all the floors and finishing up the last load or two of laundry. Tomorrow I will work on sorting my clothing and Thursday we will work on DHs clothes, and start sorting boxes that we have in the closets. It's seriously time to declutter!

Lots of appointments and no fun

We've had a lot of appointments the past few days, and not much fun either. Matt and I both had to have dental work done tomorrow, and Sierra and Will both have to go to the eye doctor tomorrow. The school sent me home a paper saying that Will's vision test indicated that he needed to have his eyes checked by a doctor so I needed to schedule one for him, and then we noticed that Sierra is doing a lot of squinting and such when she is reading, so I just scheduled for both. Matt and I have to go back to the dentist in a few weeks to get some work done, and I need to schedule a cleaning session for both kids.

And if that isn't enough appointments, I have to take 3 dogs to the vet to get rabies vaccines and have them all three spayed too. UGH! The bills are piling up and I am running out of time. I have to get this all done before May 21st because that's when we leave to go to West Virginia for a week and the dogs are all going to be outside for a week. I wanted to take them with me, but I was going to have to go with a different cabin which was an extra $250 for the week AND had to pay a $50 PER PET deposit. Then I would have had to let my brother bring his 2 dogs also, and 5 dog ranging in size from a Jack Russell Terrier up to a Rottweiler all in one small 2 bedroom cabin could get a bit crowded! lol

Thankfully I have an amazing set of in-laws and they are going to come over and feed and water my dogs and cats for me that week. (There are three cats inside too!)